It was June of 2000, (right after the hi-tech bubble burst! remember?) and I was in an orientation meeting for my first sprint triathlon. It was a Danskin Women’s Triathlon, and the Bay Area was one of dozens of locations across the US where women competed in 1/2 mile (750 meters) swim, biked for 12.4 miles (20 km), and ran for 3.1 miles (5 km).
I still couldn’t believe I had let my friend Alison drag me into it, and quite certain that I would drown in the lake, despite the laps I was doing in a tiny local pool in my attempt to train properly.
Triathlons were just starting to pick up back then, and the Danskin all-women series was the safest place to start. Still, there were some super-fit, beautifully attired pro racers on $10K bikes who were terribly intimidating. I was not comforted AT ALL by the fact that they were female! And it was scary to think I’d be sharing the same course with them.
Danskin encouraged first-timers to join the race orientation, which was given by Sally Edwards, the series’ national spokeswoman. Sally was 53 at the time, tan and sinewy. She famously held the Ironman masters (age 40+) record for both men and women. [An Ironman triathlon consists of a 2.4-mile/3.86 km swim, a 112-mile/180 km bicycle ride and a marathon 26-mile/42 km run, raced in that order. It is widely considered one of the most difficult one-day sporting events in the world.]
But when she spoke, what impressed me more than her athletic record, was how smart and funny she was.
When Sally got on stage, she started by asking how many of us were afraid we’d finish last.
Most hands shot up, mine included. Frankly, I figured I’d be dead last, as it would take the divers some time to locate my body at the bottom of the lake….
(Interestingly, Sally says that when she asks men, no one thinks they’re going to finish last – take a moment to think about this fact!)
Then she said, “You don’t have to worry about it. I’ll be doing the race, and I took a pledge to finish last.”
Sally Edwards has finished last in every single Danskin triathlon for 22 years, so that no other woman would have to.
Now the crazy thing is that Sally was a professional athlete, and these races counted toward her ranking, which meant that she went from being ranked at the top of the field to the very bottom. But she didn’t care.
She told us that she is honored to race next to the women at the end, because they are the most inspiring.
Now is where my memory gets fuzzy (forgive me, Sally!) so I can’t swear all the following details are 100% correct, but as far as I recall, she told us of the Danskin triathlon in Boston, where Sally had caught up with the woman at the end during the run part. The last woman was walking. She couldn’t run, and she was clearly struggling.
As she had done in every race, Sally introduced herself and asked the woman who she was and why she was racing. The woman said she was married to a police officer, and they had 8 children, all or most of them adopted. Turns out that her husband would meet homeless children and runaways on his job, couldn’t bear to leave them there, and would just bring them home.
For her 40th birthday, the family gave her a gym membership. She had worked so hard to raise all the kids, that she had gained weight and neglected her health. To help her, the husband and kids also signed her up with a personal trainer. The trainer encouraged her to set a goal, and train for something specific in mind. He recommended the Danskin triathlon.
The woman was having a really hard time, but what kept her going was knowing that her husband and 8 children were waiting at the end of the race with a cake they baked for her the night before. They decorated the cake with a little swimmer, a little cyclist, and a little runner….
This story has some obvious takeaways:
Many of us can get into a pattern of sacrificing ourselves for others. It’s an especially common MO for women. And even if doing so fills us with purpose and meaning, health cannot be undermined.
Yet, it’s often hard to get out of the pattern, and friends and family who see you and care about you can best support you when you reprioritize. It’s tricky, because they are often the main beneficiaries of your stretching yourself too thin!
What’s extraordinary about this story is that this family, who was the beneficiary of the mother’s sacrifice, realized it’s in everyone’s best interests that she is healthy and happy.
Such a support team is one of the biggest keys for getting out of burnout, because by definition, when you’re burned out, it’s hard to find the extra focus and energy to make major changes.
However, while that Boston woman’s story is incredibly heartwarming and endearing, what I find even more inspiring is Sally’s story.
In this interview, she shares that for the first couple of years as Danskin’s national spokeswoman, she raced as a professional triathlete, because she thought that’s what the sponsor expected.
But then she got injured. During recovery, she still wanted to participate, so she said she’d finish last. Everyone laughed at her, because she’d never finished last in her life!
That first time, she was so inspired by the stories of the women at the end, that she decided to do it again. As triathlons were growing in popularity, she found out that there were more friends and family waiting to greet the final finisher, than there were supporting the top racers.
Sally Edwards ended up doing 150 Danskins; she never missed a race in 22 years.
And when she went from first to worst, Sally became the worst female triathlete in America, because no one consistently finishes last in every single race. The competitive folks she hung out with, mostly guys (as you’d expect) said, “what are you doing, finishing last??” and she said, “It’s the best place in the whole race.”
Her message, which became the series’ message, was that it doesn’t matter where you come in the race, it matters that you’re participating. As a result, over the years, 600,000 women have done the Danskin Triathlon.
And while daring to participate, and starting by participating without judging yourself are fantastic tools, I want to ask you:
Where can you find freedom, or create better results, by intentionally attempting to “come in last”?
I have found this to be truest in writing. When stuck in writing, I often use my friend Laura Belgray’s tip “commit to doing the worst job possible”. My terrible first drafts include actual “bla bla bla” where I get stuck, and obviously require reworking, but it gets me so much further than staring at a blank screen or not even trying. Attempting to do my worst effort, gets me so much further than trying to succeed!
Sometimes, deciding to do a bad job on purpose is just freeing and fun. I experienced this in a company Karaoke night. I really wanted to sing, but also didn’t want to embarrass myself. But doing an intentional screamfest of “I Will Survive” with a couple of friends was all that was needed to enable us to try to properly sing other songs, and being somewhat off-tune felt ok, and not like a miserable failure.
This is a version of failing in order to just prove to yourself that you can get back up again.
When she was in the 3rd grade, my daughter got herself into a panic over a school test scheduled for the following day. After I could not calm her down, I told her that I really hoped that she failed. In fact, I said, I hoped her mind would go blank so she’d score a nice round 0, just so she could see that the sun would rise again. In retrospect, we did a minimal version of Tim Ferriss’s Fear Setting exercise, because that got us into talking about what would really happen if she failed, and she realized that it would just mean her teacher would work with her more. Not so scary.
In fact, whenever we’re learning anything new, when we’re in expansion, unless you have an exceptional talent, everything you do is just inadequate. Knowing you will come in last, is a great way to look that reality in the eye.
I once asked my uncle to teach me how to whistle with my fingers. This was before YouTube, (yes, I am that old!) so he showed me how to fold my tongue with my fingers, how to position my lips, and said, “Now you’ll blow out air making no sound for a few days, but if you stick with it, you’ll figure it out!”
I stuck with it and figured it out. I always whistle the loudest at concerts and shows (my kids are equally awed and humiliated by this ability). But other times I’ve given up too soon, unable to deal with being the worst at least for a while. Swing dancing, learning to play guitar, and quite a few professional directions.
Have you ever tried either intentionally failing or accepting failure in order to leap forward? Where has it worked for you?
So inspiring!
Inspiring and so well written!
As an avid runner, an entrepreneur and a learning curve fanatic, you’ve truly managed to encapsulate the connecting line of all these activities as I see it. My mantra is ‘Just Work’ (borrowed from Seinfeld)!
Work in order to enjoy, learn and get better. Accept that phase you are at for whatever its function is. Sometimes it’s a sense of achievement, sometimes it is an experiment, sometimes it is a social need or a learning jump start (who talked about failures?).
And a final anecdote, my first race was Israel’s Women Triathlon for the same reasons you’ve mentioned. It was also my last Triathlon. My experience was terrible, especially the swimming part. However, I learned that I love running, I love the race atmosphere and I gained the “can do attitude”.
And last, the founder of the Israeli Women’s Triathlon was the inspiring Susie Dvoskin, who initiated it in the memory of her cyclist daughter, Tamar. The impact of the triathlon in her words was “it taught them that they’re capable of doing something they never thought they could do…It had an amazing influence on women in many, many ways.”
wow, this is an incredible story (and I absolutely love the way you narrated it!)
I take the advice and I’m going to imagine my inner Sally to accompany me when I want to start a new thing.
I am starting a new Instagram account and I will use it there!
Thank you so much💜💜💜
When I did my Ironman (Ironman Wisconsin 2002) I so appreciated that the stretch the tape for everyone and all of the names (though it’s harder when a bunch of people go down the chute at the same time) get announced. It took me 16 1/2 hours of being out on the course and my feet had swelled up a shoe size after the bike so it was hard to run the marathon. I couldn’t swing my arms to jog at the end.
She’s totally right about the inspiring stories being at the end. I guess that might make me one of them. I didn’t know that she had made that decision with the Danskin tries. What an amazing gift for the people who haven’t raced before.
BTW, Ironmans are totally doable if you want to check it off your list. It’s mainly about the time you put in ahead of time. I don’t think there are many things that have affected my adult trajectory more than finishing that race. It was a pretty life changing confidence booster.
This was such an incredible article, Shlomit. Thank you!
I laughed. I cried. I learned.
And now I’m thinking…
What a great prompt at the end. Learning to embrace failure is a relatively new thing for me. Starting to appreciate it with anticipation as a data point is also becoming more comfortable. Now actively seeking it…I’ve done that once in recent memory and now, with your prompt, I’m going to intentionally look for more ways to do it. 🙂
Such an inspiring post Shlomit! This makes me think of the “fail fast” philosophy too. I was surprised at the difference in answers usually given between men and women too, on who’s afraid they may come in last. So many nuggets of wisdom and advice in this, especially for women. Thank you.
I was in a high-pressure course that required a group of us who were new to one another to brainstorm a list of business ideas. No one wanted to look foolish by proposing an idea that wasn’t “good enough.” We were getting nowhere. Then I proposed that we all come up with at least 5 TERRIBLE ideas. The worse the better. Like beer commercials for kids bad.
Well, that was super easy. And it turned out to be hilarious fun, broke the ice, and got us over the #1 hurdle – fear of being judged and found wanting. The people who come in last are the most interesting because they have the courage to show up and face that fear. Amazing!
I so appreciate and will consider where I can finish last in support of all the others that I want to encourage onward and upward in their journey! That is a great story. Thanks for sharing
Thank you, Bena! It’s such a nice shift to our normal way of thinking.
What a powerful message: winning isn’t everything and there’s wisdom amongst those who didn’t win. Thank you, Shlomit, for these lovely stories!
I’m with you about writing, though I still struggle with perfectionism, I just try to give myself permission to write garbage–at least the first time around.
“A shitty first draft” is the secret.
Another secret for recovering perfectionists is that no one but you knows what you had in mind, or how much better the post/website/video/whatever was supposed to be. They just see the finished product as it is, no comparisons, and usually they just like it! You’re the only one who knows and cares about how much better you wanted it to be…
This story makes me teary!! I love the idea of finishing last on purpose, to see what gifts it can give you. Thank you so much for this post!
I’ve choked up many times when telling this story. Fortunately, that doesn’t come through in writing… 😉